Blessings and Sprained Ankles

So I am not the most positive person in the world.

Everyone knows it and yeah that's life.

Lately, I have realized that me dwellng on every single little negative thing. Well most of them, as that has been my mind set for the longest time. I honestly believe that it is the reason why I have sunk so badly in my depression.

Anyways, I got sick and tired of being exhausted all the time so I thought I would change my attitude first and really go from there.

It has been a game changer. I have started just finding the little blessings of each and everyday and thinking about that instead of thinking of about the bad things during the day. I normally tweet about my blessings because actually writing them out aka making them public makes me feel like they matter and it actually happened. I am not that weird I promise.

Thinking about today it was honestly crazy due to a coworker showing up two hours late and throwing everything off schedule. Butttt theres always little blessings. I got a good amount of tips. The coworker who I thought I was struggling to get along with(I swore up and down she didn't like me) and I got along really well and we worked together well. We arent the best of friends but I don't think we hate each other.(I think that is one of the biggest blessings of the day honestly haha) I also didn't wake up right before work so I had time to eat and watch a little bit of my favorite show which is so much better than being rushed about everything.

Thinking mostly about the good things has gone so good. I honestly feel like I have a little bit more energy throughout the day. I feel like I laugh and smile a little bit more. My depression and anxiety don't seem to be in a corner laughing about how they can make my life a miserable mess. Yeah stupid things happened today, like again it was super hot today and my feet hurt after work and so.much.ice.cream but it happened. It is another day in my life and honestly it won't matter tomorrow. I look foward to the next day and what it brings.

Something that has been a blessing in disquise is having a sprained ankle since Saturday. You are probably honestly wondering why that may honestly be but just listen. It is a fun story. I wore a new pair of shoes late last week and I got a nasty blister and it was huge on my heel so me being a natrual toe walker(thanks Cerbreal Palsy) I walked on my toes and I somehow tisted my ankle. It felt funny Friday but I went on my day and then Saturday my ankle swelled up to the size of a golf ball and man that wasn't fun. Also funny thing, I also broke out in a rash thanks to the band-aid and the neosporin i put on my blister but hey life is funny right?

Here's where the blessings come in. I called my nurse of a dad limping home and I talked to him and he said get home ice and elavate the usual. So I did that and I prayed and prayed that the swelling would go down at least a little so I could attend church the next day and so I could buy a wrap for it. I took some bendaryl and some motrin(life savers I promise) and the next morning the sweling was down enough that I could attend church and decently walk to get the wrap.

Now the swelling has gone down and now it is just bruised a lot which honestly I am so thankful for. It could've been so much worse but if it wasn't for modern medicine and my dad I probably would've had to miss work and stayed in bed crying in pain. I am thankful for this lesson of wearing socks with new Sperry's that I always seem to forget.

My life never seems to be boring that is a fact but I am trying to live the best of it.

-Kyrsten