When To Serve?

Lately all I have been thinking about is missions. If you don't know what a mission is then go to this link :What Is A Mormon Mission? 

I had the chance to go to the temple this week after probably one of the worst weeks that I have had since I moved to Idaho. I was emotionally exhausted and drained to the point where I wanted to just curl up into a corner and lay there for lots of hours. Luckily my friend was like I am going to the temple to do baptisms and if you want to come then you can. Ever since then I can't get my mind off of it.

I have known forever that I have wanted to go serve. It has just been when do I start my papers. When should I go? I turn 19 in January. So I could've started my papers in July. Oops.

One of my good friends is serving in The Great OCM(Ohio Columbus Mission) and yes I lived in that mission. Yes I met him while he was serving in my area. Anyways, I have been emailing him back and forth since I have been out in Idaho and I told him how I was taking a mission prep class and he told me, "The Lord will qualify you if you are willing to do his work." I love that.

I think half of my problem of why I haven't started my papers is that I have been so scared and that quote fits. Another one of my friends also told me that you will never truly be prepared to serve a mission. That is true. You will never truly know what to expect.

Also tonight was The General Women's Broadcast and I loved it. I do have one question going into conference week and such and it is When am I supposed to go? I keep going back and forth between now and the summer.

Service was something mentioned a lot during the broadcast and I can't help but giggle that just maybe it is my time to go. Sister Carol F. McConkie said, Serve one another with kindness and compassion. She also said that we may serve a righteous cause with Jesus in our hearts.

So what does that leave for me?

I don't know. Heavenly Father is slowly giving me the answers that I have been asking for months. I just have to wait patiently and see what He wants for me.

-Kyrsten