Faith Over Fear

Originally I had this huge blog post about my week all in a draft.

Well plot twist.

I changed the title and the content so enjoy this instead 

The last two weeks have been the hardest weeks of my life. I have never been so mentally/physically/spiritually exhausted. I was pushed to the breaking point.

I couldn't really enjoy much of the last couple of weeks because everything in a way sucked.

I was losing faith in so much. It hurt. I tried talking to my friends and emailing my other friends. I even tried calling my mom and I kept coming up short.

I really did not know what to do. Everything kept piling on. It was like the situation kept coming up again and again.

It finally came to the point where I just needed outside help. I got council from who I feel like could give me council. After that I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders.

It wasn't even a long conversation. Basically the summary of it was that I need to count my blessings and move on.

I realized tonight well actually a good fifteen minutes or so ago that I need to have faith over fear. I have more faith then I realize sometimes. If I didn't, I don't think I would've made it through the last two weeks.

I got through two of the worst weeks I have had in awhile. And I know I probably say this everytime I go through something but honestly this was so rough.

I am so much stronger after this. I am going to do what is going to make me happy and what is going to make me better for the future.

I have to be honest with myself and those around me. If they don't like it or accept it then that is all on them.

I still have so much to work on with myself. It is going to take time and effort but holy crap I am worth it and I am strong with it. I am an amazing Daughter of God and I am finally now starting to believe it.

-Kyrsten