Dear 2020

 I have tried to write this four times but here we go.

I found my blog post from the end of last year that I wrote "I think 2020 is going to bring the best blessings." Well dang, I have never read such a true statement. I find myself incredibly blessed this last year even in the middle of the pandemic.

2020 brought me good health, an even greater love, a wonderful therapist, a new apartment, and even a greater relationship with God. 

I spent most of this year selfish. Took my mental health into my hands and really dived deep into therapy. One PTSD diagnosis later I am figuring life out. Figuring what triggers me, figuring out how to set boundaries and to stand up for myself. Childhood trauma is no joke. 

I moved out of my apartment that I shared with two roommates and it was bittersweet but much needed. I followed a prompting that it needed to happen and God made it happen. My apartment now is finally becoming a home and my little safe space.

2020 brought a love that is something I can't even imagine. I have never laughed so hard in my life over sometimes the most ridiculous things. I have spent time getting to know someone inside and out and falling completely in love and getting engaged all in the span of a year(actually like seven months but time doesnt matter.) It has taught me patience, kindness, and realizing you can't really do life without your best friend. Heres a tip, totally fall in love with your best friend. Best experience of my life. 

My relationship with God really improved while having a faith crisis that I am sure I have talked long and hard about. Something about almost giving up but also really realizing that God does have a plan and never gives up on us that really hits home.

2020 has had the highs and has had the lows. I am thankful for all the people who have stuck around through crying fits, phone calls, rants. listening to me scream about everything but also celebrating all the good things.

2020 has been insane for others but I find myself forever grateful for the year that really taught me to take chances let my guard down and to never give up on an adventure. 

2020 you've been a real treat, here's to a well rounded 2021.