Agency

I have been trying to think of what to blog for the last three days.

It has been driving me completely crazy because normally I can think of something and bam there is a blog post.

Life hasn't really been in a walk in the park lately and I think that is why I have been so hesitant on blogging recently.

It's funny that I have been so hesitant lately because I never am. I usually am so open on here and what not. I just haven't felt the need to.

But hello I am alive and surviving!

I really learned a huge lesson in agency the last couple of weeks that I would like to share. Having agency means you can make your own choices and basically face whatever consequences later on.

For me, that was the choice of seeing a guy who turned out to be kinda toxic. It was toxic basically from the start. I think in the back of my mind I knew it wasn't right but heck I was happy for the first time in awhile and I was having fun so why not roll with it.

It wasn't until my friends got involved that things kinda took a turn. They met him and they knew he just wasn't good news and for me that hurts. I mean who would be happy if their best friends didn't like the guy they were kinda seeing.

Anyways without going into details, I ended up walking away from the situation. And it is hard. It still is. It isn't my proudest moment but I learned that you have to make your own decisions.

You make your decisions and learn from them. Whether they are mistakes or what not.

It is so funny how lessons are learned. I didn't think it would be in that way but it happened. I also learned to totally trust my friends judgement of the guys I hang out and to honestly ask for their opinions.

Basically that has been the last couple of weeks of my life. Trying to pick up my life and figure out what the heck to do.

In other news, I leave Idaho in roughly five days or so! Gotta start this new chapter of my life somewhere! 

-Kyrsten