Conference Weekend

I had my whole life planned out up until a couple of days ago.

School for a semester and then I was going to go on my mission and then sometime after that I was going to get married in the Salt Lake City Temple to my eternal companion for all time and eternity.

I am still in school don't worry. I am still in Idaho alive and well. Pretty broke but im a college student. I just don't know if I am going to go on my mission quite yet. Now I already hear the gasps and the red alarms coming from every single one of you. Heck if you were on Facebook and backlash from a couple of days ago you would kinda understand.

That is not the reason why I am pushing off going. I still have so much to figure out with my life. I am trying to survive my first semester. I am loving it so much but I have never had to figure out who I am as much as right now. I don't know if I should go. I don't know if it is right for me. I was going to start my papers within the next two weeks. I even told my best friend who I was emailing this week and he was super excited for me. But what if it isn't for me?

I am not hurt by this recent thought of maybe not serving a mission. I have faith whatever I am going to do that it is because of Him and he knows.

Don't worry about me. I call my dad and vent for a good twenty or so minutes a couple of times of week and I love it. It is always what I need but this weekend was so special to me! The gospel always and forever has my back.

As a member of the Church twice a year we do a conference called General Conference. Our general authorities speak to us about all sorts of topics. Cool thing is that we do not know who is talking or what they are talking about day of.

This conference was super special. We got three new Apostles and I already know that they are going to do great work among us.

The talks this year were so amazing and so wonderful! Of course they all reaffirmed that the Lord knows my desires and has a plan for me. That brings me such comfort. Even if I don't know what I am doing with my life He does.

Our wonderful loving President, President Thomas S.Monson said that we need to pray always and things will be good.  Prayer is so important. I cannot even exclaim how important the act of prayer is.

I always strive to do good. I have room to improve. I went into conference and I was like should I start my papers? When should I go? Why do people serve missions?

I got the answers of wait don't even start your papers you may not go. Now you may be like Kyrsten you were going to go I am so sad blah blah blah. Yeah well guess what friends? I am kinda sad about it too. But if I am not meant to go I won't go. I have to pray about it. I haven't even turned 19 yet. Maybe I just didn't get the answers I thought I was going to.

I have such a strong testimony of this Church. I am so grateful to be apart of it. I know that whatever I do in the next 6+ plus are because of Him and only because He has a plan for me. So please don't be sad! It will all work out in some sort way.

In other unrelated news that I keep talking about but no one really cares about my best friends will be home by next general conference! I am beyond excited. He only has 234 days left. Craziness especially how I met him as a baby missionary!

Anyways, I love you all! Thanks for standing by me always and putting up with me! I will keep you all informed!

-Kyrsten