Anyone who truly knows me, knows my life has been far from easy.
I will save all the details but I have since then just lived in a period where I am content, I don't go out of my way to become "happy" because I didn't know how to be happy. I let things happen. I even try not to get excited about things because lets be real.
Anyways, I was totally humbled in this last week.
And for those who are on the edge of their seat waiting hoping for details, nope. Nice try.
I have learned a huge lesson this week about happiness. In the midst of all my mental health struggles, I didn't know if I was ever gonna be "truly happy". After last year, I didn't think I would ever feel pure joy again.
A year later, I have learned what happiness and joy is all in one. I learned how to laugh all over again and smiled. I have found myself telling myself especially recently it is okay to be happy. You are allowed to be happy. I have spent almost the last week on edge because in a way I didn't feel like I deserved to be happy. I was content where I was. Kinda just coasting by.
It makes me so incredibly grateful. I am grateful to feel pure happiness and joy. Grateful for everything in my life. Grateful that I am alive to see this all play out.
I know during this pandemic I was scared. I was scared I was going to lose my testimony in God, I was scared of SO many things. In the end(well right now), I have such a strong testimony that God has such a plan. I know He knows exactly what I need in my life. I am grateful.
Life is so good right now. It feels like everything is happening the way it should be and for that my heart is full. Full of love for all those around me and in my life.
I am truly truly grateful for how life has worked out and all the little things to come out of it.
